So, I really really suck at this whole...being healthy thing. It just does not come easily to me. I don't think about ways to make things healthier by elimination or substitution. I don't really want to work out...ever. I really just prefer baking and watching TV. Those are comfortable. Those are easy. Those are safe. And maybe that's my problem. Maybe I'm too comfortable being safe and boring. I need to start pushing my boundaries. I need to start living my life to the fullest, not just boring day by boring day.
I am going to challenge myself in two ways: mentally and physically. When I meet these goals I will reward myself with a well-deserved hug, because I shouldn't have a cookie and I don't have the funds for a new outfit...dang it. Large changes come about through small changes, so one small change at a time my friends. I can do this, I just can't make the goal of reaching the moon when I don't even know basic physics, you know what I mean?
Mental Challenge
I've been having a hard time finding joy in my life as of recent times. I know that this is self-imposed because I choose to exile myself from the rest of society for my own comfort and semi-peace of mind. BUT THIS NEEDS TO STOP. I need to make connections with people. I need to go out and get out of my bed and out of my head. Mentally, I'm exhausted all the time. I have started having anxiety attacks and I can't help but over analyze every little thing that I did in my interactions with people.. Or, alternatively, I don't care at all what and how others perceive me, which most times is good, but in my case it leads to me dressing and looking like a homeless person on a regular basis and not really having any pride in my appearance. So, mental goals. I need to make changes that will help me to become happier, more joyful, and generally a more positive person, like the person I used to be.
Mental Goal #1: Get out of the house and into nature once a week.
This seems like a given for most people, but I really enjoy being at home, maybe a little too much. Sometimes I don't even know what the weather is like because I'm so content in my pajamas in my bed that I can't even bother to look out a window for hours if not days. I need to connect more with nature. Nature has a way of making people happier just by simply existing in harmony with it. Like Pocahantas says, "We are all connected to each other. In a circle, in a hoop that never ends." Granted, I do live in Las Vegas, so really the only nature we have is rocks, sand, and scorpions, but I will try my best!
Physical Challenge
I've never really LIKED working out, ever in my life. Even when I was forced to through elementary and high school I never enjoyed that. As an adult, I'm hoping I didn't enjoy it because I large part of Physical Education programs in schools is based on running, and I, Amber Farmer, am no runner. Even when I was in great shape in high school during tennis season I could always be counted on for being the slowest runner. "After all this time?" Always. So, in order to facilitate my larger goal of losing weight and becoming healthy, I need to set some physical goals, things that will get me moving and get my heart beating.
Physical Goal #1: Complete and entire 5 day workout plan in one week.
I know what you're thinking, "Well, there are 7 days in a week so a 5 day workout plan completed within 7 days sounds like cake." Well, for me, it's not. As mentioned above, I do not enjoy working out. So, even with my gym super close to both my house and my work, I still don't want to go that often. I make it to the gym three, maybe four, times a week which stretches out my workout plan to almost two weeks. I know that if I was able to complete it all in one week I would actually see results, but I'm lazy so it hasn't happened yet. But this is going to happen!
These goals are now in writing. That means that they are in effect and that I have to complete them. I will update on the progress of these goals in a month, at which point I will make more goals. Wish me luck!
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